dunno why eh.
these few days feeling uncomfortable.
i had a fever this morning!
went to see doctor and indeed i really sick.
i cancelled my tuition and met him.
he's unhappy tt i feigned sick and cancel my tuition.
he felt tt i was lazy,he said u r e laziest gf!
it hurt me,to think i travel all the way to meet him and he din show any concern abt my illness but blame me for being lazy.ITS A FACT TT I AM SICK if not doctor won't gif me 2days MC again.he told me but u seems fine to me!the fact is if i see him my mood will be brightened of cos.SICK but in a gd mood understand?yupp dun wan give tuition i say scared pass my germs to my student its an excuse wana noe real reason?its want to stay a lil longer with you.but u chased me home.u scared i wana take cab and ask money from u is it?From the start when u give me money i did reject but after u say lots of time den i take.today den u tell me actually ya so unhappy abt it.Hmm den nxt time don sweet talk me say wad,u r my dear so its alright,i wan u to be safe at hm,take the money k.the fact! is u care so much abt$ den y give in the first place?i din say i muz take cab!i can take bus.since when when u r really tired and i forced u to walk to the busstop with me?i care abt u k.juz now u questioned me u dun wan go spread germs to mattius den u wan stay here spread germs to me la.THAT hurts too ya?how can u think in this manner,i wudn't wan spread to u either.but i can't deny tt i am selfish tt i wanna spend time with you.OH! so u rmb tt i am sick huh,but u din show concern towards me.
when u r sick i showed a lot of concern to you,whether its fake a not cos i noe it feels great being cared by others.YES on the fone u asked i treat u not gd meh?i am sick and yet..i juz feel heartbroken.pain is all i feel.
when ya asleep i won't wan wake u up.1st i scared u angry,i dun wan spoil ur slp i juz wait for u to slp for hours.but when i'm sleeping(sick)not even half an hour u cum bully me wake me up den go back watch ur stuff.selfish not?tt's a minor thing la i won't feel much but juz feel like voicing out.
i sms u 2 message but yet still no reply. =(
u muz be thinkin i emo again huh.
u told me sch very BZ no time sms or even msn.
but u can go to ur friend's hostel drink,1 sms won't take long uncle! =(
u promised me sth and u broke it again. u noe its harmful and yet. =(
whatever la huh.crying is pointless,u won't even care you juz leave me to cry in sorrow.u won't feel the pain for me,you won't feel guilty,you juz despise me and assume tt i won't excel.u wana demoralised me but i won't i'm strong.Juz dunno why u treat me liddat.i'm ur gf,not a normal friend(guy friend).i feel insecure and helpless at times.i used to feel tt u can protect me but now i feel tt u care only urself.i asked u today e same question u gave me an uncertain answer.HMM okies.
juz leave me alone till u get my point of view.
i'm heading to medication.
nights PPL.
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